Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Not Of Man But God
We started out as young boys blindly making our way to manhood. There were no maps or instructions, only what we figured out. Our ages ranged from 14 to 16. I was in the middle of the pack. Riding down the road listening to Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band. Reaching speeds on this old one lane country road that I know was way to fast but that was the only way to go. I can remember driving a Ford LTD through a bridge in a curve so fast that the guardrails were the only things that kept us on the road. Sparks were coming off of the side of the car as we hit the guardrails of the bridge but we could care less. I had no driver’s license but we were screaming down the road. It was so cool back then. There were so many times and stories, mostly on myself, that I can remember but it is hard to put into words. Or put it in the right time line. I am going to try and do it one day where it may make some sense to others.
Two of my friends went into the military straight out of high school. I often wondered where I would be today if I had joined with them. I have no regrets. My choices in life may not have been the ones someone else would have made, but I made them. Me and I alone, almost. One of life’s greatest conflicts is how some, or most, people think that they are better than everyone else. I would put one question to those people. What the fuck gives you such superiority over anyone else. I am aware that each of us is created, yes I said created, in our own special way. But whether you have a million dollars or ten dollars in change neither one makes the person better or worse than the other. My dad instilled my faith in me with the Holy Spirit guiding him I’m sure. There is right and wrong. There is good and evil. We all have a conscience that tells us the difference. Unless there are mitigating circumstances. Such as mental illness. But that is another story all together. I know. One can judge another on one of many faults that we have as mere mortal human beings. Since the fall of Adam in the garden we have that hurdle that only by the grace of God go I. We all have the right to choose our surroundings. If someone does not like something then they have the right to not be submitted to that certain fault of one human to another. But when it goes to the point of the one fault someone has trouble with is the main concern of another is a saint as I am, I think that one should say: give me a break, please. Unless you have walked a mile in someone’s shoes then maybe, just maybe, they should get a break from the worldly complaints and the expectations of others. I was born in Lebenon Kentucky with my mom and dad residing near Battle Kentucky; I was raised up thinking that I had everything I could possibly want. Of course this was only compared to what I knew. I did not know just how far off the mark I had put myself after becoming a man until around my 40th birthday. I was outside mowing my grass asking God to help me, crying most of the way. I had gotten used to being alone, as far as having someone I could trust. I trusted no one and to be honest I still cannot put my trust in any one but my shining light, my friend, and my counselor, Emanuel. Of course I go through times where I do not understand why or what is happening. In Matthew 5:45: That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. we all will go through the same trials and tribulations whether we are believers or not. The underlying thought that I cannot get away from is that I did not do enough while here on earth. I let my Saviour down. But you know what. His grace and mercy does cover all for those who truly have faith in Him. Christ only asks us to believe in Him and put all our trust in Him. Not what things we have done that would be measured by man. God knows our hearts and our true intentions. and all things about us. He made us and knew us even before we where born. God knows what things we will have to go through and He will not put any more on us than we can stand with His help. So then what do we fear? I can answer that one. Not one thing or anything here on earth. Our eternity will be in the supernatural. Not in these bodies of flesh and bone. I truly believe that, in faith and with the grace of God, I can go anywhere and do anything that He would have me do. I am willing to put my faith out in front of my worldly things and let Him lead me completely. I just want to be sure that it is Him that I am listening to. I trust in the Lord my God with all my heart and soul.
39: But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
40: And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.
41: And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
42: Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.
43: Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
44: But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
45: That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
46: For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?
47: And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?
48: Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.